The circle starts with a 5 year old girl
Maybe loved, maybe just there
Surely not cherished
Or carefully watched out for
No one made sure the monsters were not under the bed
or in them
No one saw the look on her face
or the look in her eyes if they had
they would have seen her fear, heard her cries
They didnt see what was wrong when they left her alone
if they had looked deep enough they would have seen
the horrors that live in her still and invade her home
these people would now die if they were to know
what was going on

She went from one horror story to the next
She spent her evenings in the bar
but too dark and noisy to do her homework
but too little to be home alone
Too small to raise a voice but big enough to be noticed
that she was a little girl alone in the bar
not noticed by kind strangers who would call the police
or her teacher or preacher and ask why she was there
but noticed by those who look for little girls who spend
their nights in a bar, this is where she learned to
send her thoughts so far, just dont think
now they act shocked that a 9 year old is drunk
and act like they had no idea, it was cute when I was 7
and they act like they dont know

now its to hell and the devil was there
reminding her of how she lost all one night long ago
that her mother left her to face the world alone
one girl now 12 needed someone
cried inside and wanted to be loved
all she got was grief when she could have so
easily felt love if those around had cared
not to be so selfish and into themself
so self rightous and cruel to someone
who just wanted and needed someone to care

I wish I could say that this story ended well
but now she lives in her own adult hell
wishing someone had guided her another way
wishing someone had loved her the way
that she loves her own but then she realizes
that the love she has
doesnt mean a damned thing
because all through life the only thing
she learned was how to tune it all out and
be passive and not be heard. Just tried to keep
quitet thinking it would all fix itself someday
now haunted knowing what happened to that 5 year old
little girl has dictated her life
and ruined what was good and could have been right

No hate here. Totally forgiven and turned over to God.