Did you ever while looking for a home find one that just called your name? One that you could see a million possibilities in and you were already placing our furniture in your mind? Well, I found that house. I have prayed until I am sure God is sick of hearing about it. I know all things come in time, and I must wait until God is ready but I feel he is ready ya know :) I am saving my money like never before!! I have Kevin geeked up too. He is very supportive of my wishes :) He is probably the best husband on earth.

Now Holly has found a townhouse of her own and she gets the keys this Saturday. She probably wont move. But she will have a house LOL

Josh has been in a state of discontent. He has tried a hundred jobs since college and he decided to go take the pre - test for the Marines. I was hoping he would not pass...... He passed. He is taking his long test this weekend and taking his physical next week. He may still change his mind. I am not freaking out because my nephew joined the Marines after graduation this past year and he is loving it. He is in Japan right now and his next step is Austrailia. I cant imagine being able to go to those places. I am not going to be selfish and cry and insist he drop out and not join like I did to all of them when they were in HS and talking about it. I am going to support him and be proud of him. But I am very sad. I dont like war. I crave Peace. I dont support anything going on with this war in Iraq right now but I am want Josh to be happy but right now my heart is very heavy. I am not much fun to be around. I just want to stay at home with my family. I dont even like to leave to scrapbook any more. I just want to stay home where I am safe. Or I think I am. I think if I stay in the house, no badness can reach me easily and no badness can get in because I am there to protect it. It doesnt make sense right now but that is how I feel. Sometimes I think I will have time for that nervous breakdown soon......