Halloween so far.....

Kevin loves blowing leaves. He is proud when he puts his little backpack on and goes out front to blow the yard free of leaves. He is crazy

My sister had her baby!! Finally at 42 weeks :) He's a big boy and his name is Abbas. He was born on Monday morning the 23rd. He weighs 9 lbs and 14 ounces, 23 inches long. Welcome little Abbas :)

I am 42!! There were times that I could not even remember my own age without subtracting from the current year LOL Why? Because I lied about it so much!! But I can officially say that I am 42. I am also putting this out there so if I forget I can refer back to this post HAHAHA Remember hahaha before LOL???

My doctors appointment went really well. I am down to 2 meds now and I am used to the side effects so much I can usually get through the day without much trouble :) Finally. Still dont really know why my original medication stopped working in August and there is always the chance the new meds might stop working but until then I should be back to normal WHATEVER THAT IS!!! I am not sure I have ever lived a normal day in my life!!!

If I have to go back in the hospital I have to get a pacemaker. I dont like the sound of that.

Lots of new babies on the scene. My neice Brittany had her precious baby boy Friday, my cousins AJ and Traci had a baby girl last week. I have not heard from my sister lately to see if she had her little boy who is due any day now. And you will all probably be shocked to know... I dont have any pictures to share right now! Consider it an vision rest seeing as my grand sons are about to come for a 3 week visit and their photos will be plastered here for weeks!!!

Nan and I have been trying to scrapbook for weeks and every time we make a date I end up in the hospital. We are going to get my halloween pages done this week if it kills me!!!

Ariel is going on her first field trip today! She is going to Upland Farms. Alex went as a chaperone. Alex is such a great auntie!! She takes such good care of Ariel. I dont know how we would all live without her!!

Oh yeah... the test was as bad as it seemed.... if you ever get the chance to have one, pass. It simulates a heart attack. I once again landed in the hospital over a stinking test. I have one request of hospitals. Get internet access or I am not coming back. I will boycott hospitals. I told my doctor I refused to go anywhere but Bon Secours and she said "yeah sure" and then the ambulance drivers (I went by ambulance) took me to St John Macomb. No where near as bad as St John on Moross but still not Bon Secours. Bon Secours has internet access and private rooms. Not that I think I am deserving of anything above normal but I would rather not have my big ass sticking out of the back of the hospital nightgown with other people in the room. I had Kevin bring me up some jogging pants and a tshirt but I had on a "special" gown that had a big pocket in the front for the heart monitor so I could take it with me wherever I went all the while my ass sticking out in the back. Isnt that special.

The only cool thing is that I get to go back to work Monday. Thank God. I need to relax. There is no relaxation in this house. I miss work. I miss my work friends. I miss $500 a week overtime.

Oh yeah, add one more drug to the list. Betapace. Its nowhere near as fun as it sounds.

I am having a Adenosine Sestamibi Stress test today. I have searched far and wide for someone who has had it done to tell me that its not as bad as it sounds. Unfortunately its as bad as it sounds. Every test I take scares me now. I got a MRI last week. I thought it was just an exray. Not any more. Now you get injected with a drug that "heats you up" for a few minutes. I mean it was hot! The simplest tests I go through now have new meaning. I know at some point they are going to hurt.

I have a lot of heart patients who read my blog and I dont really want to scare them but this is my outlet. At least you will know what happens when I come back here to complain. Kevin and all my friends are so supportive and understanding but I cant let this be all of what I am. I can't by only a heart patient. I cant complain every day. Sometimes I have to come here to scream!! I need to do normal things and be the person I am in addition to a heart patient you know.

I know how stupid I sound to people who have children with heart disease and who live every day going through far more than I ever have. But like I said, I just need to complain and yell sometimes and get it out of my system. Then I can go out and pretend to be normal and say I'm fine.

I am feeling a little better. I started another new medication on Monday called Lanoxin. If I take this with the Cardizem I feel okay for quite a bit of the day. I was hoping to go back to work on Monday I swear I was LOL but nope, I will be at home. Maybe next week.

I did get some scrapbooking done. I finished one of my haunted house books

I went to the doctor on Monday. I got new meds. This one will work I just know it! Until it does I cant go to work. How's that for fun! Actually I dont like missing work. I am afraid they are going to do something without me :( Oh well I guess I might as well enjoy it while I can.

I have been left with no choice but to scrapbook all day! And pray this medicine works and has no weird or iffy side effects!

I am having a very bad weekend. I could not get my new medication on Monday becuase of an error in dosage. I was going to see my doctor on Monday anyways so I waited. I figured I would tell her on Monday when I saw her. So last night I wake up with this strange feeling and tightening in my chest. I waited for it to go away but it doesnt seem like its going to. It seems to be getting worse so I am preparing to go to the ER if I have to. I hate the ER. I would rather just tell them what I have and go to my room. Usually every other time this has gone away. I still hope and pray it will just go away. So if your looking for me and you cant find me I will probably be in the hospital. Bon Secours on Jefferson. My next to last home....